Happy to be home

I'm home and am so happy... tak ada cucuk sana sini... no i don't want to go thru another operation... please Allah... please save me.. I've had enough of painful operations before..
I hope this so called hydrosalpinx that i am having will not take me to the operation teater again... tak nak...

Now ni, i'm taking my mothers advice to drink kunyit+delima... whatever it takes asalkan rasa sakit dah kurang... Alhamdulillah...
I'm gonna have to go for another check up end of this week and i'm hoping that there'll be good news for me. 'No operations needed'.. that would be the best sentence ever to my ears.. Am praying hard.. insyaAllah...

Ramadhan in the ward

I was looking forward for the abundace of gift from Allah through this Ramadhan. But it's so true that life is full af surprises, Allah showers me with gift of patience. I was thinking of a full fasting month but I am now lying on the hospital bed instead.

Yep, the doctor said i have hydrosalpinx, which is a swollen fallopian tube maybe caused by the previous major operations and my endometriosis.

I actually hate myself for being sick. Always wanna be there for everybody, especially for my darling hubby and the two most precious.

For now, i am just proud to see how wonderful they have been to me. Hadif and Nuha are patiently waiting for me without complaining. They understand that their Ummi is sick.

I love you guys with all my heart.