No Pain No Gain

I am so grateful that after all I have been thru.. I am still here... Betul semua yang terjadi memang ada hikmahnya... Allah loves me that's why He granted me dugaan sekadar termampu.. The things that happen has made me become stronger.. Older n wiser..
My hydrosalpinx... Alhamdulillah... manageable setakat ni... no pain.. Need to go for checkup soon for routine though.. seb baik time cuti sekolah ni... takde la sakit2 macam the years before...
Like i said Allah is Almighty.. I will always go back to Him.. cause my life is only for Him... Am not going to look back... no regrets..
There's a future for everybody as long as we have hope!

Traditional Chinese Medicine

Lama dah tak update blog... maklum la orang 'Rajin'..
Anyway, i went back to JB last three weeks, and i was walking alone kat Holiday Plaza, i saw this one traditional chinese medicine centre. Memang dah lama nak cari tempat macam ni sebab my pain datang balik. pergi check doctor tgk hydrosalpinx dah bengkak balik, tak tau kenapa coz i memang very discipline with my medications.
Jenguk2 depan kedai, sekali tu ada this chinese man whom i memang agak friend2 jugak, he came to me and ask i nak cuba ke TCM tu sebab doctor kat situ is his friend. Mungkin Tuhan nak tolong, my mother pun lalu ngan bibik dia, terus ajak i masuk klinik tu.
Doctor check2 dia kata ' brad sekurasyen' aka 'blood circulation' hehe... is very bad, that's why benda banyak blockage. so dia bagi la i makan ubat, kalau tak nak bayar dulu pun takpe dia kata. Tapi i baik, so i bayar je lebih kurang RM400 gak la.
Last week i gi check up, hydrosalpinx dah tak ada!! what??? seriousss??? My gynae pun was so impressed..! Yeayyyyy.... I was smiling to myself masa keluar from doctor's office.. Thank you Doctor Soong... There are still good doctors who cares about their patients... Thank you Dr. Soong, thank you so very much...

Supplements

As of today, I'm feeling healthier. Thanks to the supplements that I've been introduced by my Dr. K.N. Singh from Johor Women Specialist. I must say that the supplements by AMWAY memang sangat berkesan to me. At the same time I'm also drinking Susu AlphaLipid in the morning when my tummy is still empty. Sekarang ni belum pernah dapat demam or any sakit lagi since 3 months ago. Alhamdulillah...
Last week I went for checkup kat pantai medical centre and i did papsmear dengan CA125 untuk tumor marker test. The test result belum keluar lagi, I hope everything will be fine.
However, my body is telling me that everything is okey, tak ada pun rasa bengkak2 or tajam2 dalam rahim.
Anyway, hanya Allah swt taala yang tentukan semuanya, kita hanya mampu berusaha dan berdoa sedaya yang termampu. I redha and berserah saja atas apa yang dikurniakan to myself cause i know everything ada hikmahnya. I am always grateful for whatever happens to me cause everybody's destiny is death.

Happy to be home

I'm home and am so happy... tak ada cucuk sana sini... no i don't want to go thru another operation... please Allah... please save me.. I've had enough of painful operations before..
I hope this so called hydrosalpinx that i am having will not take me to the operation teater again... tak nak...

Now ni, i'm taking my mothers advice to drink kunyit+delima... whatever it takes asalkan rasa sakit dah kurang... Alhamdulillah...
I'm gonna have to go for another check up end of this week and i'm hoping that there'll be good news for me. 'No operations needed'.. that would be the best sentence ever to my ears.. Am praying hard.. insyaAllah...

Ramadhan in the ward

I was looking forward for the abundace of gift from Allah through this Ramadhan. But it's so true that life is full af surprises, Allah showers me with gift of patience. I was thinking of a full fasting month but I am now lying on the hospital bed instead.

Yep, the doctor said i have hydrosalpinx, which is a swollen fallopian tube maybe caused by the previous major operations and my endometriosis.

I actually hate myself for being sick. Always wanna be there for everybody, especially for my darling hubby and the two most precious.

For now, i am just proud to see how wonderful they have been to me. Hadif and Nuha are patiently waiting for me without complaining. They understand that their Ummi is sick.

I love you guys with all my heart.